16 weeks. That’s the goal I’m setting. 16 weeks to getting back to a baseline where I feel like I can exercise and function at a normal level, and aiming for the big R…Remission. It is where I will start training with a running group, doing an exercise program closer to what I used to do. But this time is different this time I am building a solid base. I had a terrible migraine Friday despite waking up ready to tackle my to-do list. I instead spent the day in a dark room. I came out of it depressed and feeling defeated. How am I going to start a business if I can’t work?? Yesterday I started researching POTS and joined some POTS groups. I need to understand it if I’m going to overcome it.

Last night I did not sleep but a few hours but I got up anyway and despite being slow to start I will finish strong with business school. I will not miss today despite being exhausted. You see, it is part of the process. Being exhausted and hurting as I am today is just normal no matter how much I sleep. I read that getting up at the same time every day no matter what will help me get my sleep schedule down and at least that part of it will be okay. Exhausted but sleeping better. Today I plan on going on a walk on the treadmill and using the pedals underneath my desk to keep the blood flowing and work me back to health. I read that keeping the blood flowing is important to help with the exhaustion and will help develop exercise tolerance.

Last week when I finally did a spreadsheet of all I wanted to accomplish and broke it down into long-term, mid-term, and short-term I was able to get a review of what my to-do list was really going to look like. I felt better, more in control. I got some time with my daughter Saturday and went to garage sales which is one of my favorite things to do with her. I got dizzy and definitely can’t do as many as I did last year at this time. I need to stop comparing myself to the time before I got sick. All that matters is if I can tell myself at the end of the day I tried my best. If 40% is 100% of what I can give that day it is still my best. Friday, my best was taking care of myself as I dealt with a massive headache. Yesterday I took off other than doing some light cleaning. Hopefully This blog will be more interesting soon. I’m doing my best and that’s what matters. It’s Monday, I am just getting my week started and it’s going to be a good one. How do I know that? Because I will make it so.